Thanku God for saving my husband's life!

Life is not just going on. Past is just like an vast ocean and present is not known to me. I believe God should have a look into this.

Mind

I am not sure where to start with but all I know I am in pain now. I am not able to cry it out. Today I really dont know where the pain is coming from but my mind is oozing out blood. This is not the first time I had this pain with me but each time I go through this it takes my heart out of me. Each time I suffer through this I pray hard that God should not allow anyone to go through this. O Jesus, I pray that you should be always be everyone every time to help them out. You have the power to heal and that's why everyone prays to you in belief. I fear and I am scared that I cant share anything to anyone. My husband asked me to stay calm and fight against the odds. Each time I fight my odds out, it breaks me to the core. I cant forget this life and I cant forget anything.

I am afraid of hoping, my God.